Most personal blogs, specifically Recovery blogs, have a detailed ‘my story’ or ‘about me’ section.
Often, they choose to start from birth, work their way up to their addiction forming, proceed to telling the story about how rock bottom felt, and work their way to the present.
I really don’t see any problems with it and don’t think it’s a bad thing.
It works for a lot of people, but I have found that it really doesn’t for me.
I have had a hard time writing the ‘my story’ page for my Recovery blog.
I have tried. Really, I have.
Most writers will understand when I say that it is difficult to write when it feels forced or there isn’t any passion behind it. That is how it is for me anyway..
So it isn’t for lack of trying on my part.
I have typed it up and it just doesn’t sit well with me.
I have yelled at it.
Published it, and quickly deleted it.
Prayed about it.
Edited it and deleted it again.
and deleted it for the last time.
and usually if I am not feeling good about something there is a reason.
I have realized that I have to just do what works for me and that I like mine the way that it is.
Current and present-focused. To me, about ‘me’ doesn’t have much to do with anything in my past.
It isn’t that I am ashamed of my childhood.
I am not afraid to share it.
As time has passed, the impact that my childhood has had on my testimony has decreased, and isn’t really a big part of who I am anymore. On paper, it has dwindled down to a few sentences and has been overshadowed.
Studies tell us that in the cyber world, we lose people’s attention pretty quickly.
As writers we don’t get a whole lot of time to hold onto the attention of new readers.
Considering that, I think it would be counter-productive to ask strangers to sit for fifteen minutes, reading my most personal childhood hell (trauma, neglect, violence etc.)— in chronological order,
in order to get to why they’re really in that section in the first place- and that is to get to know me.
I shared that story for years.
It served its purpose as a therapeutic tool meant for my own healing and personal growth.
God helped me use that part of my story to get me to a healthier place.
Through that process I was able to see the significance and value of forgiveness, making amends, and moving on.
At some point I realized that this part of ‘my story’ was not going to define my personal identity any longer.
It keeps me humble and grateful.
But I have really just realized that
…’my story’ is much much more than traumatic childhood experiences.
My story is a continuous thing, updated on my blog every week!
My story is still unfolding as I type!
That is what I find so ‘beautiful’ about life.
My story and yours, is a journey that continually moves, changes, and if we allow it to, it transforms!
We discover, experience, and feel —LIFE!
I am sure this will change over time, as I publish my first book it might be more necessary to dig a little bit deeper in that section of this blog. If I ever get to my second idea for a book, I am sure it will change again.
For now, I will try to keep my about me section relevant and aligned with my current goals of writing and sharing my life and thoughts with you guys.
And also, thank you for reading and sticking by me. 🙂