I was just thinking and thought I would share with you guys.
Isn’t it ironic that in early addiction we tend to live in the future. We are living fast, we want things now, we are rushing around in a hurry to have fun and find more, more, more.
In late addiction we tend to dwell on the past. We dwell on all of the past. We dwell on things going as far back as childhood and work our way right up to all of our recent misgivings, shortcomings and mistakes.
In early addiction we are thriving off of a false sense of reality. The truth that we knew is fading and is being overtaken by a facade.
In late addiction we begin to see the truth of what our lives had become and we grow weary and tired of chasing the facade.
In early Recovery we are afraid that we aren’t worthy or strong enough to turn things around for the better. We dwell on the fear of the unknown, and we worry anxiously if we will have the strength to hack it.
In late Recovery when we are stronger and our lives have changed. We spend the majority of our time trying to encourage and convince people to take the first step; from a very similar place we were just standing, terrified.
In early Recovery the truth scares the crap out of us.
It is that fear that keeps us in hiding.
In late Recovery that truth that we discover about who and what we really are is what fuels us, keeps going, and keeps us out there trying to help others.