My sobriety. It is where healing in more than one area of my life began. Because of it, I have found the courage to uncover dark, buried, forgotten, and unknown hurt that ultimately lead to my drug problem, and eventual addiction. But if you were to pour over the 200+ posts of mine here, you…
Tag: Sobriety
No Thank-You, Anxiety
Ten years ago I think if you would have asked me, I would have told you that I believed that I was an outgoing, people-oriented person. Never-mind the fact that it only took three or four various types of Benzo’s carefully carelessly mixed with any amount of cheap alcohol to render my central nervous system…
It All Boils Down To Staying Honest With Ourselves
I said I would tell you how things went after I left the hospital. Maybe it doesn’t ever completely ‘go away’. It goes, somewhere, but not ‘away’. I know that is not a super sciency explanation, but this is a real-life, true to every day explanation. Like if our brains were old farm-houses. Our old addictions…
Addiction Destroys Families.
Yes addiction destroys families. It destroys all of nouns in its path if they are within reach. It’s hostages are usually people, but relationships, mental health, physical health, emotional health, a person’s business, someone’s career, overall stability, and wellness are almost always banged up too. You name it. If it’s in the way, it either…
Living Free.
Freedom for me, came when I came to believe that a power greater than myself, could restore my life and sanity. That power that has shown me to be much greater than myself, is Jesus. Because of this relationship that I have: My mind is not as gullible. Yes I am sober and the fog…
Guest: Tom- Acknowledging Alcohol Abuse
Hi my name is Tom and I am a recovering heavy alcohol abuser/possible alcoholic (I can’t say I was alcoholic or not because I never got evaluated).It all started when I got back from Afghanistan in 2007 and I felt the need to drink a lot because that is what I thought everyone did when…
8 Things I Wasn’t Expecting In Early Recovery
Being newly sober was not what I expected. Here are some things that I personally would have wanted to know early on: 1. You might feel like you’re physically dying. Say hello to withdrawal. On a scale of one-to-ten your severity of pain or discomfort will vary, but go in knowing that your body is…
Each Day Is New.
For years I started each day with overwhelming sense of disappointment that I woke up…again. I never looked forward to the chase, but I’m not sure that anyone really does. My overall attitude had developed into knowing that today would be just like yesterday: ‘Same shit, different day’ and it was just the way I…
Bravely Amateur.
consequences unable to teach Sobriety out of reach hands reaching for help,soul screaming for rest shunned,pushed away, not good enough at best angry, empty exhaustion setting in help me, I’m slipping, no ones watching, dying from my sin one kind hand, one open heart, the right time, the right place, a fresh new start recovery,…