Chapter 8: Escape
Outwardly, I was a rebellious teenager pushing limits, breaking rules, and defying authority.
Inward- a girl pushing away real connections, breaking anyone or anything that tried to break through my walls, and defying anything that felt unsafe or asked for vulnerability.
I was angry. Afraid. And obsessed with keeping myself safe.
Long before it was addicted to drugs I was addicted to the feeling and sense of safety.
The high I was chasing first, was isolation, mistaken as freedom or peace.