Author: Brittany

PSA.

*It is progressive, it has gotten worse and you are utilizing it more and more as time goes by. *It seems to be gaining strength and power over time. *Maybe it began as an emotional or psychological (or egotistical) crutch. *It may have been passed down previous generations and now it’s yours. *Unless there is …

JFT Encouragement

I am in recovery from the after effects of childhood trauma. My experiences changed who I might have been and how I operated, navigated, and interacted through my life. For years I grieved for that little girl who had opportunities ripped out from underneath her. Anger and sadness consumed me, and I secretly yearned to …

Self-Care In Addiction Recovery

My addiction recovery was only supposed to help me learn how-to not eat pills for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. I never went in expecting anything more than to learn how to abstain from drugs and alcohol. So I began to wonder why so much emphasis was being placed on self-care and self-love when I went …

What Recovery Taught Me About Accepting Love After Experiencing Trauma

It’s almost Valentine’s Day. Let’s talk about love…. A few years ago I believed that drugs and alcohol were the culprit behind my inability to accept love from other people. My philosophy? It was because of my addiction(s) that I had let toxic shame overcome all what was left of me, and that is why …

Content vs. Complacent, What’s The Difference?

The difference between being a person in recovery who is content, and being a person in recovery who has become complacent, is a subtle one. Both are formally defined with very similar descriptive words like satisfaction & gratification. In my opinion, and personal experience with both, the subtle difference hinges on pride; and we all …

Jumping When You Are Ambivalent about Recovery & Life Change

I can remember feeling comfortable living the way I was living. Of course, I wouldn’t describe my life as full or my feelings as content or joyous, because it was all the exact opposite. Still, I was comfortable being there. I mean, there was zero possibility of letting anyone down. Not even I could manage …

Hard Work Always Pays Off, Sometimes In Unexpected Ways.

Steps  8, 9, & 10. I believe it is smart to continue living out these steps in my day-to-day life. Not only to maintain my sobriety, but my maintain my integrity that reflects my values as a person and the strength of my interpersonal relationships. If you need a refresher, here are steps 8-10: 8.Made …

I Want To Be Supportive Of Others, Without Getting Distracted

I won’t force you to listen to my personal top 50 song list of 2016, the things that I am most grateful for, or my complete goal list for 2017. I just want to share one of my personal goals that I am carrying over into 2017. It is to stop allowing the comparison game to …

I Don’t Miss Faking My Way Through The Holiday Season

You know what I don’t miss around the holiday season? Faking my way through gatherings in an attempt to live up to the expectations of others, and to look and sound as sober and happy as everyone else seemed to be. I would make an exhaustive effort to fit by faking my way through what …

Coffee at Midnight, Please Send Help

On my way to the coffee pot at midnight. Rest assured, this particular walk of shame was exactly as it should be. I made sure to mutter that sweet, negative self-talk to myself as I tip-toed down the hallway so not to wake the small, sugar-filled humans. There is no way I could let myself …

Creating Tradition Doesn’t Have To Be Complicated

A few weeks ago during a small-ish ladies event, for our conversation starter activity we were asked to finish this sentence: (Out-loud. One by one.) “It just wouldn’t be Thanksgiving without…”   Since I shelved the art of lying to try to sound as ‘normal’ as possible, years ago, for my response I chose to …

Tips For The Holidays

Tips For The Holidays

I was asked to be a part of an expert panel for a Facebook live event put on by the ever wonderful, Beach House Center for Recovery. I definitely had to dig my heels into this commitment, but I refused to let myself back out. I am proud of myself for following through on my word. …

No Thank-You, Anxiety

  Ten years ago I think if you would have asked me, I would have told you that I believed that I was an outgoing, people-oriented person. Never-mind the fact that it only took three or four various types of Benzo’s carefully carelessly mixed with any amount of cheap alcohol to render my central nervous system …

Here’s To 10 Years of Digging Out

This is the month that I acknowledge that I have made it to my ten-year mark. Ten short years in recovery. No more squirming around searching for a place to land. It’s completely fulfilling here and I am still just as grateful as ever to live in this head space. It has been a long …

Surrounded By Truth

In group settings (group meetings, Bible studies, etc.) I am usually pretty quiet. I observe, listen, and take it all in and am usually pretty reluctant to speak for one reason or thousands of introvertish anxiety ridden reasons another. But when something new clicks my child-like excitement won’t allow me to sit still. If it …

Should Drug-Dealers Be Held Accountable For Overdose Deaths?

I have been hearing more and more stories of drug-traffickers, pushers, and dealers being held criminally responsible for overdose deaths. I am also a regular viewer of the show: “The First 48” and have been for almost 15 seasons now. So basically I am an expert in criminal law and homicide investigation. 😉 In cases …

New Normals

In early recovery, my secondary focus was finding peace. It could have tied for first place if staying sober was even the tiniest bit negotiable as a required prerequisite before anything else could happen, but that’s not how this recovery thing works. Finding peace had been a priority on my to-do list my entire life. …

Guest: Sonia Tagliareni-DrugRehab.com Writer & Researcher

Recovery is a lifelong process that extends far beyond substance abuse treatment. Maintaining abstinence is paramount if an individual wants to lead a drug and alcohol free life. Substance abuse treatment is difficult on patients but maintaining recovery after treatment is equally challenging. The people in recovery need to stay away from environmental triggers and …

3 Things I Have Learned About Breaking Cycles of Dysfunction

Most of what was supposed to have been my childhood was actually just me, walking around pissed, in disbelief that my life was actually my life. The rest I was just hyper-focused and centered on pre-planning my actions & reactions, and surviving day-to-day on an emotional and psychological level. I had no idea that I was …

How To Get Through Halloween Sober.

Before I became addicted to Benzodiazepines and tirelessly & unsuccessfully escaping my life, I was a self-categorized professional ‘party girl’. Ahhh. The life of ridiculous, careless, over-indulgence. What a glamorous thing.  Long before my physiological-self needed its next high to start any given day, my false-self (ego) needed to remain active at all times, as …

Don’t Give Up

Don’t Give Up

Music speaks to me in a unique way and I loved this song the very first time I heard it on the radio a few weeks ago. Today is first time I have had a chance to watch the ‘official’ video for this song. I sat this morning with tears streaming down my face as …

When You Finally See That Everything Is Not Fine

Generational addiction is complex and ugly. While it isn’t a hopeless thing to come back from, it is impossible to mend relationships if no one is willing to take a look at the truth, especially if you are talking about unraveling years and years of effects of trauma, abuse, codependency, enabling, addiction, and mismanaged mental-illness. …

Dear Younger, More Naive, Critical, Me

In case you need a reminder today: It’s going to be okay. You are not a failure. Lapse, relapse, messed up, slipped up, fucked up, wrong choice? It doesn’t mean that you don’t deserve sobriety. It doesn’t mean that you will always just mess up. It also doesn’t mean that you have failed and you should …

3 Powerful Things I Have Learned In Recovery

Funny, amazing, beautiful, painful, crazy awesome things happen when you allow God to disassemble your entire life and the person who you thought you were, and allow transformation to happen. I am not sure if I have gone through so many internal overhaul’s because I got sober at a young age, or because until that point I had never …

I Am The Child Of An Addict & I Am A Former Stigma Supporter

If anyone understands what the ramifications of guilt and shame associated with the relentless, ignorant, shaming of another human being feels like, it would be me. Guilty. I was twenty-five before I realized that maybe, maybe my mom wasn’t actually just a batshit crazy woman, doomed to forever be an infuriating, selfish person. Seriously. I …

Guest: Trey Dyer-Drugrehab.com Author

Where Do Teens Find Drugs? Check Your Medicine Cabinet Teens can encounter drugs in a number of ways. At school, with friends, from drug dealers — these are all possible avenues for teens to find drugs. However, most teens do not have to leave their home to find drugs these days. A trip to the …

Doubting God & Making My Faith My Own

Yesterday I was digging around looking for an application for certification that I had misplaced. (Because there is nothing that makes more sense than being a housemommywife with credentials that I won’t actually be using.) I found the application, along with (a quarter, yes.This is a small portion) of my hand-written notes from back in …

Guest: Marc- Afflictions Eclipsed by Glory

It is my belief that everything happens for a reason. A belief I was intrinsically born with I believe yet brought to fruition by my faith in a power that is greater than myself. My belief in all-powerful, all knowing, and all loving power that I myself, choose to call God! My creator, my healer, my wonderful …

4 Ways To Avoid Your Baggage, That Won’t Help You

Baggage. We all have it. How full it is, what it contains, and how willing you are to unpack it depends on who you are. And I learned the hard way, as I do most of my life things, that unpacking the bag is more wise than some of the alternatives…. Growing up, I hid …

The Experience of Love

  Most of us were taught that God would love us if and when we change. In fact, God loves you so that you can change. What empowers change, what makes you desirous of change is the experience of love. It is that inherent experience of love that becomes the engine of change.  ― Richard …

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